I know I haven’t a blog post now in quite some time… Has
Jesus been doing big things in my life? Heck yes! He’s rocked my boat and my
world! Just nothing to necessarily blog about… But tonight, I was doing Morgan
Jesus Time, as I call it, and I was just reading in John- started in chapter 13
and went through till like chapter 18- I remember I stopped right before Peter
denies Jesus for the first time. I wanted to soak in all that I had just read
and focus on the things that stuck out. Several things did, but mainly, John
13:38. In that one verse, Jesus asks Peter a question- “Would you really lay
your life down for me?” Wow. What a question. Would you REALLY lay YOUR life
down for ME? I just sat in silence focusing on that one verse, that one
question, and felt Jesus asking me the same thing. “Morgan, would you really
lay your life down for me?” It’s really easy to say, “Yes, of course, Jesus, I
would totally lay my life down for you.” It’s just so easy, but then I sat on
the question a little longer, and I could feel the emphasis on the “really.”
But would I REALLY lay down my life for him. I had to put it in gruesome
context. I’m one those people that is constantly making movies in their head-
and I learned recently that I’m not the only person that does this, though this
may be the first time that I’ve ever admitted it… haha but I really had to
picture myself in the situation. It would be so easy to say, “Yes, I believe in
Jesus and claim Him as my Lord and Savior,” if death was going to be
instantaneous. But what if it was going to be a prolonged, awful process? What
if there would be a ton of horrific pain involved? Would I still be willing to
stand for Him? Would I really be willing to endure that pain and suffering?
As I sat there, really pondering that question, really
feeling the weight of it, I felt all the fear of that pain leave; I felt His
courage and strength. I found myself more grieved over those I would leave
behind.
And so the question is now yours. If Jesus looked at you eye
to eye today and asked, “Would you really lay your life down for me?” what
would you say?
